Not in a MILLION years!!!
I NEVER imagined I could feel PEACE & JOY with SO much going wrong in the world.
Is it just me, or does it seem like the book of REVELATIONS is being acted out in high definition?
I’m not just talking about the COVID mess worldwide.
Or the natural disasters in the US.
Or the loss of American lives in Afghanistan.
I mean cray-cray in my own life.
From lower back pain that made me stop working out.
To my dog, Happy’s dermatologist “recommending” I administer two shots a day for TWO MONTHS, then one every week for a year to cure his environmental allergies. #wtfffff
To breaking up with my bae for saying he didn’t know if he was the “right” man for me because he didn’t want to keep triggering me.
Had any ONE of these incidents happened at any other time in my life, I would have rained down RIGHTEOUS HOLY HELL–without remorse. And dealt with the consequences gladly. #realtalk
But I’ve been working on myself in preparation for my 50th coming up in three weeks.
I’ve been reading articles, listening to meditations, and investing in personal development programs online. I’ve been taking more me-time just to be still and hear my own thoughts instead of listening to the world.
I’m committed that the next 50 years of my life are the BEST 50 years of my life!
I realize I no longer have to fight. I can stand for what I believe and do my best to transform the world. If all I can do is donate to Haiti then I know in my heart, I am doing God’s work.
I’m not going to take Happy through all those shots. We will find another way to tend to his allergies. I promise. #puppyloveisreal
I will keep taking Pilates, visit my chiropractor, and do deep tissue massage for my back.
My bae went on a “please-forgive-me-for-being-an-idiot-and-I-am-sorry-for-my-insecurities-getting-on-you” makeup binge. He got himself sorted out with his therapist.
He has sent one certified overnight letter, three cards, two dozen freshly cut white roses (which are my favorite), and had groceries delivered to me because I haven’t been feeling well this week. I’m still a little grumbly, but I appreciate all the work he is putting in. It means a lot to me and makes me want to try with him.
All of these actions are a result of the future I am living into, which I have articulated as a possibility. #somuchyes
Here it is!
Who I am is the possibility of loving leadership, support, and empowering partnership!!! How cool is that?????
This possibility, this contextual domain is a WONDROUS organizing principle to live my life from.
It takes the pressure off of fighting to make the world a better place.
It allows me to let myself be supported instead of having to do it alone.
It lets me be a team player instead of having to be the hero.
So instead of being overwhelmed by all that’s happening in the world and in my life, I have a created and inspired space to stand so love wins instead of despair.
I now have a created context that moves me joyfully and transforms my actions, my words, and my experience of life itself. It let’s me have grace with myself so I can give grace to the world.
What possibility can YOU create, sis, that inspires you? The world will keep on doing what it does, but we don’t have to live at the effect of the never-ending news cycle of doom and gloom.
Being “in” the world is different than being “of” the world.
Please remember that sis.
Let me hear from you.
I love you.